my colourful life :)

2008-10-10T09:48:00.002+08:00

this week has been an enjoyable week for me :)

monday - met up with mindy and then the gb girls.
tuesday - school and then the gb girls
wednesday - met up with grace for swimming and then baz came
thursday - stayed at home and relax
friday to sunday - cell retreat! :D
ooooo~ so excited!! HAHHAHHAAA!

somehow, it's a blessing to bum at home.
though it gets boring at times,
but at least i have time to meet people :)

baby, i hope you will not be upset.
i apologise for not being able to accompany u for the 3 weekends of this month.
but rest assured, i am still contactable.
except for the camp in malacca.
but i will try to get roaming alright?
i will still text you, so be happy (if you're sad).
take care and see you on sunday!

2008-10-03T23:14:00.003+08:00

oh yeah, it's friday! :D

boyfriend's outcome? UNCERTAIN.
hahaha.. the airplanes were faulty. lol.
maybe it's a plan from Him?
so now, you have more time to study.

i couldn't sleep last night,
so i prayed and read the bible :) so happy!

i went to gekpoh mac to meet huishi, esther, jiachyi, abigail and xueyi.
they're really a joy to be with :)
had a chat with huishi too.
and she sent me a text just now, it touched my heart!
i am glad that i've the opportunity to know them better.
they came over to my place and we watched Passion of Christ.
once again, it touches me, for the eighth time.
huishi, things will be okay. i love you
and like you say, my shoulders will always be available for you to lean on.
smile, my dear.

sometimes, the younger one always receive unfair treatment at home.
whatever the older one cant do, the younger one will have to do it.
just now, i voiced out my opinion. oh yeah, i ~~HATE~~ unfairness!
but... i was scolded. seriously,whatever!
ultimately, i know i will lose but at least i said it.
keeping it inside makes me feel uber upset!
learning to love the unlovable......
verdict: TOUGH, IMPOSSIBLE, UNBEARABLE!
but, i am learning.
guess it takes time................................ argh!

2008-10-02T22:13:00.003+08:00

today is a terrible day for me....
on the train from orchard back to jp, i felt like crying
tears were fighting their way out, but i hold it back.

life hasn't been beautiful for me or maybe its just me?
i really dont know. i am lost, confused, alone.
school hasn't been what i expected it to be. it's so individualistic.
or maybe i am just too used to classroom's life?
or maybe too used to having lots of friends fluttering around?
i really don't like the 'lonely' life there.
it's not that i dont have friends...everything just seem so different.
and i have been staying at home almost everyday in a week.
i dont even know what's wrong with my life now.
i am just so lost. sigh sigh sigh sigh..
and my dad. just as i thought "wow! finally he is changing.."
BOOM! he hit me real hard again. oh yeah. HOW GREAT!

in addition to the devastating mental state i am in,
nokia just add more anger in it. -.-
how can one possibly repair a phone consecutively for 3 times?!
ask me! and i can tell you more..
seriously, what's wrong with nokia phones?!
i went to wheelock twice and the phone is still faculty!
i am just boiling, boiling in anger...
and i even rushed down from school, feeling hungry
oh well.. a hungry man is an angry man.
but in this case, i am a woman. O.o
anyway, rushed to jp to mail boyfriend his game cause he is confine for the weekend.
but he called to say dont send.. and i got worried.
my thoughts are proven right.
women's sixth sense; dont under-estimate it.

he called to tell me he isnt doing well.
and he might be coming back like tmr?
sigh. my heart kinda sank.
i do hope he will do well tmr.
but yet at the same time, i want to see him.
dilemma? ya.. spot on.
i want him to pass. but judging on things, it seems unlikely.
i dont know how to encourage him, how to motivate him.
suddenly, i feel so useless.
all i can say is "jiayou" but what's the point?
i bet it doesnt help at all.
what is really wrong? sighhhhhhhhh..

this is super super gloomy entry.
everything just seem so wrong.
i prayed for him.. but.....
at this rate of accumulating more anger and sorrow,
i probably burst out...
and yes, i cried just now.
finally... i am able to let it flow.
feeling so so tired and worried..

hope everything will go well tmr..
sigh....
he just told me he is feeling stressed.
honestly, i am too. :'(

2008-10-01T22:04:00.002+08:00

this morning, i was awake by boyfriend's phonecall.
it's nice hearing his voice in the morning :)
after talking to him, i went to have breakfast with mummy.
mummy kept saying she want to eat lots of different food today.
in the end, we had porridge. O.o hahahha
after that, we went to shop around and to the supermarket.

i bought dragon fruits for boyfriend's parents,
cause was thinking of dropping by his place to get his game cd and shirt.
initially, i thought of getting it and leave.
i was kinda afraid of going his place without him.
thankfully, jieling encouraged me and i prayed along the way.
so finally, i reached his place and surprisingly, i went in.
i had a nice chat with his mother and sister.
we sat down at the dining table and talked abt bf, hair colour, school, online shopping, etc.
it was the first time i talked to them without him around.
around 4, i left his place cause mummy was at home alone.
i felt very proud of myself that i have the courage to do it.
boyfriend is proud of me too!!
he never expect me to do it cause i am scared of his parents.
oh well..... thank God for the opportunity :D

as i am typing this entry,
my very very very petty and immature brother stormed into my room
he demanded that i hang the laundry because my dad helped me tonight.
being me, i asked,"where should i?"
and he started screaming and yelling.
immature? yes. very.
since he wants to be so calculative, i said "i always helped u to keep the laundry."
surprisingly he replied "i am working!"
seems like i ought to do it, which is totally not, so i said "that's totally none of my business"
i cant be bothered with him. it's just keep the laundry!
a super ultimate extremely immature conversation - over the laundry!
why am i always being taken for granted?! argh!!
that argument took away my happy feeling. *SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSS!!*

baby, tmr sending parcel! :)
anticipate for it...... HAHAHHAHAHA!
off to prepare for school tmr

2008-09-28T22:18:00.005+08:00

haven't been keeping updating on "what's happening" in my life.
minhui says "your blog is dying..."
alrighty! i'm here to revive it! :D

couples of weeks(after sep 4) has been really mind-torturing.
days were spent or rather wasted on doing nothing.
have been occupying myself with drama serials and movies.
good life eh?!!
*shake head* life like this is meaningless and aimless...
i wonder how long am i going to live like that!
i need a meaning, i need a purpose! :S

i was at clementi mrt station on thursday, waiting for grace.
and, i was reading a book "dance for your daddy"; its really a good book!
the author's mother was forced into prositution by her husband,
she had a very bad-tempered and abusive father, etc.
i wonder why did God created us but yet at the same time created such people around?
and also, why is people in third countries suffering? (maybe they are happy with their lives, BUT...)
why are people unwilling to bless such people with their riches?
thinking of all this, i have the sudden urge to go cambodia.
a couple of days back, my friend's personal msg on msn was "it feels so great to live lavishly"
sometimes, i really wonder where is the fairness in life....

on a lighter note, i have been spending time with my friends and i enjoyed it! :)
i was chatting with mindy on fri..
mindy: your passion always inspires me
mindy: n ya love for everyone
mindy: amazing
mindy: immense!
lynnest: hahaa.. i really dint realise abt tat.
i felt so so so encouraged by her. really..
however, i find it difficult to love somebody - my brother.
it's just so so hard.. i've tried, but i failed.

ytd i went for my cousin, josel's 21st birthday.
she shared a very heart-warming testimony.
and today, pastor shared with everybody that my bdae is coming.
HAHAHAHAHAHA! i am excited!
i guess it's time to share about my life in and out of church, for the first time.
i was thinking of asking mummy to share..
just now, i told mummy i am going to make her cry on my birthday!
i do hope so..

lately, boyfriend's flying hasn't been really good.
judging from the messages he sent me.
i guess i've a part to play.. all the arguments we had.
i don't know whether it affected him.
i am sorry about it. really sorry.
ytd night, he went clubbing..
i felt like a mother overnight.
i couldn't sleep at all. i was worried cause he was drinking alcoholic drinks.
and i think in large quantities.
i was afraid that something bad will happen to him.
worse of all, he is in a foreign land..
at 6am, i managed to fell asleep....
i can understand how my mum feels when i go home late!
HAHAHAHAAHA... it's tough being a mother :)

bye bye

[edited]
yea, like wad boyfriend tagged.
i am suppose SUPPOSE to be in perth this weekend.
so what am i doing here in SINGAPORE?!
HAHAHHAHAHAA! oh well...

read jiayu's blog just now.
indeed, i miss millennia. tons and tons!
we used to say how great it would be to graduate from the school.
but now i totally totally miss it!
i miss the uniform days, the tak-glam days, the grapevine days.
time always passed so fast when i'm in school.
i really miss the closeness i shared with my girls.
in SIM, no closeness, no love, no happiness.
i wanna go back to MI!! i really want to *pouts*

2008-09-04T20:17:00.002+08:00

today wasn't really a bumming day for me.
i went out with germaine to bugis despite the heavy rain
she's nice to cab down to my place to fetch me :)
it was an enjoyable trip, i must say.
at least i have sth to do.. hahahaa...

today boyfriend nv msg me till now :S
guess he is too busy to entertain me. lol.
he sounded quite happy in his message cause he is able to fly solo
i am really happy for him.
GOOD JOB! *GRINSSSSSSS*

anyway, i am so gonna upgrade my phone's software!
THE LATEST VERSION IS E!
and mine is only B! -.-
vivo city, anyone??? *pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

2008-09-02T20:19:00.003+08:00

another BUMMING day!
met germaine at jp.
i bought a green top :)
wanted to get a pair of shoes @ charles & keith.
but they dont have my size. oh man :(

i was happy that you nudge me when i went online.
it's because you seldom do it. hur hur hur..
i believe you will improve too!
i have 100% confidence in you!
YOU CAN DO IT!

2008-09-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

i am back from tuition :)

i was reading bing's blog.
and yes.. indeed, God is working in JCC.
eversince the dialect service started, things has changed.
it's just......AWESOME :)

to BING:
"YES! we'll be friends no matter where we are!"
i really enjoy my friendship with you. i really do.
we always have endless topics to talk about.
never once we have a moment of silence.
i am thankful of having a sister like you.
and you really really got me excited! HAHAHA!
i am glad to be part of your happiness.
i want you to be happy at all times.
i love you, sis!

currently, i am feeling words-blocked.
plenty of thoughts to pen down but i don't know how.
i don't know which words to use.
i don't know how to construct my sentences.
oh well, i will just keep it to myself.
emotional me, again.

2008-09-01T17:57:00.011+08:00

happy 8th monthsary, dear :)

it's been a boring day for me.

i am officially unemployed, certified bummer.

watched 2 movies on HBO - dreamgirls, monster house.

oh well, i guess that's the lifestyle of a bummer -.-

on a happy note,

daddy received Christ yesterday! :)

i was really shocked when roger told me.

God is really amazing, isn't it?

He just answered a prayer i made long time ago. hee hee..

mummy and daddy will be making plans to remove the idols at home.

today, dad asked me whether am i happy.

i smiled and nodded my head. indeed, i am overjoyed.

sat, i went to paya lebar airbase open house with roger, minhui and charis.

my heart was fluttering non-stop.

i was excited and anxious. hahaha..

since young, i like looking at airplanes, tanks, ships, parade and uniforms!

my friends termed my liking as - a fetish. lol

anyway, i didnt really enjoy my trip there as much as i thought i would.

i couldn't help it. my mind was filled with boyfriend.

images of him just kept flooding my mind.

seeing pilots in flight suit, airplanes, airforce school, etc just make it worse.

how i wish you were there with me.

afterall, it was still a fun and fruitful day out with them :)

baby, thank you for not going. i appreciate it :) i really do.

oh ya! the girls got THIRD for their drill competiton!

proud of all of you! GOOD JOB!

i am starting to miss those times spent with them :(

boyfriend mentioned that he probably be coming back in dec instead of me going to perth.

woooooooooooo~~! *SMILESSSSSS*

alrighty, have to shower and prepare for tuition. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2008-08-23T21:59:00.002+08:00

hello loves.

haven been updating,
promised min to update it this morning. :)
so... here i am!!

this week has been a tired but yet, refreshing for me.
apart from school and mugging everyday,
time was well-spent despite busyness.
had GB on monday, wednesday, friday and saturday,
due to the upcoming drill competition..
this morning, i was telling min that i have been seeing her for the entire week.
other then gb, tues was games at minds cafe.
thurs was shopping.
and tmr.. church. HAHAHAHAHA!
it's nice meeting "mean to the marrow"
honestly, i enjoying meeting her alot. (minhui, HAPPY????)

by the way, i have change my hair colour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was originally brown and gold hairlights.
NOW, it's black and red highlights.
i have been wanting to do it for a long time.
but boyfriend doesn't really like it. HMMMMM.............

school has been alright.
econs still drives me to insanity.
accounts, pretty alright.
maths 1, my nemesis for life.
sociology, errr.... no comments.

alrighty, time to watch tv. :)

2008-08-15T14:10:00.001+08:00

baby's flying improved :)

it always make me happy when i know he appreciates what i do.

tonight we're going to webcam,

i am so excited! HAHAHAHAHA!

2008-08-15T10:34:00.003+08:00

mundane lifestyle with a little glimpse of light.

i am starting to appreciate my student life.

it's Him that i draw my strength from.

my lovely Daddy, that i can always count on.

to my dearest one,

how's your flying today?

if you never do well, don't be discouraged.

i believe YOU CAN DO IT!

please check your email, i've got something for you :)

just want you to know that,

when people around you doesn't care about you, i care.

when you're lonely and sad, remember me, i am always with you.

when you need me, just text me, my love will be sent to you immediately.

when you need support, i am your biggest supporter.

i will be your supporter, encourager, friend, lover.

thank you for working hard for everything.

xin ku ni le....

2008-08-13T09:50:00.004+08:00

i really abhor the lifestyle i am having now.

doing mundane stuff all day but yet, i don't have a choice.

i am drained. totally exhausted.

ytd, bing told me that i am a chameleon.

am i really one? i've no idea.

lately, i have been really forgiving and nice to boyfriend.

he even commented that i have changed.

a better change, i guess.

we shared dreams of how future will be like for the both of us.

somehow, i hope it will come true. right baby?

i had a nice brunch with mama on sat.

told her how i felt and my thoughts of resigning.

and....

mummy finally agree to my resignation! thank you Father :)

though i would be financially handicap but i believe i will be happier.

boyfriend has been really supportive to me

and not forgetting my friends too!

THANK YOU!

i am so blessed with lovely and sweet people. *screams*

i watched the national day parade with mummy, bro and claire.

i guess we all belong to the same family as we share the same likings.

we were only interested in the parade, not the performance.

bro started reminiscing about his GOH days. -.-

i have the sudden urge to join the army. oh yeah!

the black knights was awesome!

i was extremely exhilarated by them.

i began to wonder what if boyfriend was one of them. :)

a nice saturday spent with my family.

sunday was GREAT too!

board games in church and followed by island creamery.

oooooooo.... the ice-cream!

boyfriend, i will bring you there when you're back!

anyway, the company was terrific.

it was laughter, laughter and still laughter....

ps: sociology lecture coming up at 3.30pm. tsk tsk!

2008-08-08T11:00:00.002+08:00

baby's test should be over by now.

sms-ed him for like thousand over times! (okay, i exaggerated)

and he hasn't reply a single one.

i am so anxious now. palpitating heartbeat.

i think i will die of heart attack soon.

and, my phone kept beeping but it's not his msges!

argh!!!

2008-08-08T09:51:00.003+08:00

it's been a week at school. i enjoyed it.

i realized taking the initiative to talk to others isn't my forte.

but i'll try my best. ha. hope so.

2 days in school isn't enough. not at all.

i thought it was a blessing, a 'fun' thing to just study 2 days.

now, it's a disaster to me!

1 chapter per lecture. 1 lecture per week.

21 chapers in total. 21 lectures before examination.

i am taking, economics, accounting, maths, sociology.

so far...sociology and maths is driving me to insanity.

in order to do well, i have decided to resign from my current job.

i need the time, the energy to concentrate on my studies.

i do not want to waste the 24K and yet again, committing the same mistakes i've done before.

i really want to my mum proud of me, academically.

yes. baby, you're right. university isn't that easy as i thought.

baby is taking his flying test now. :s

i am feeling jittery. i wonder how he will fare.

if he fail, he will be back to singapore on sunday.

if he pass, he will continue and move on to the next stage.

he kept assuring me that nothing bad will happen.

and even if he fail, it's okay because he will be able to see me.

my silly one :)

i want him to pass but yet, i want him to come back.

oh well.....

actually, for the past few days, i've been feeling very troubled.

i cried, i prayed, i tried to make myself happy..

but nothing seems to help.

i do not know what to do. i really don't know.

sometimes i wished God didn't create me.

however, when i see the people around me,

i am thankful that He gave me the chance to live.

i am facing lots of pressure. pressure i instill upon myself.

i am tired. exhausted. jaded. stressed. depressed. confused.

what's wrong with me?

2008-08-04T10:28:00.003+08:00

firstly, congratulations to huiling and ling for their driving license. :)

i went to school on saturday for my first accounting lecture.

the things that the lecturer taught was the basic that i learnt before.

once in secondary, once in MI. and now.. one more time in SIM. -.-

boyfriend was sweet to call me after my lecture. hee hee :)

anyway, went home and slept till dinner time.

i wasn't allowed to go out cause i was still sick. (by him)

a wasteful sat, doing mundane stuff. *shrugs*

sunday, it was church as usual.

i am really HAPPY to see airen, bing in church.

after lunch, we went cityhall and bugis for shopping.

just the 2 of us. and i like it :)

it just back to the good old days.

tons of laughter, tons of talking, tons of eating, etc..

and we kept saying we were lovesick.

i told her about boyfriend and me...

and she kept commenting he is a good man. lol.

i do hope so. *fingers crossing*

anyway, as we were walking, we saw "the soup spoon" restaurant.

B: there's the soup spoon restaurant here.

L: uh-huh.

B: their soup is really nice! it's their specialty!

L: ya. like duh!

B: oh..maybe you might think it was the spoon.

*jaw drop* lame, isn't it?

but i had a good laugh when i heard her saying.

INDEED, it was a fabulous day together!

i told boyfriend about bing's comments

and he started praising himself. *roll eyes*

as i was lying on the bed,

i thought about my relationship with him

we're like kids, displaying our immature sides exclusively to each other.

we're like buddies, going out together; doing mundane stuffs tgt.

we're like confidants, able to share everything with each other.

we're like supporters, supporting each other.

we're like nannies, taking care of each other.

we're like comforters, always comforting each other.

we're like foes, quarreling endlessly.

we're like care-giver, giving out care and concern whole-heartedly.

we're like lovers, just loving each other.

baby, i am glad that i have you :)

erm, guess i am getting abit mushy...

alright, i'm lovesick. i admit. :x

2008-08-01T09:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MONTHSARY MY DEAR :)

time flies, isn't it?

i hope our relationship will remain fervent,

even when we are miles apart.

i guess absence does help in a relationship

it makes one realised how important their gf/bf is.

baby, don't you agree?? *smiles*

josel is taking her driving test today.

ALL THE BEST TO YOU! :)

i am sick. yes, again. hahahhaa.

but i still went to work,

despite constant objection from mummy and boyfriend.

now, i totally regret that lamebrained action. sigh~

[add]

though you may not be here with me physically,

little actions like texting me continuously, warms my heart.

it's makes me happy being sick.

i guess you must be pretty worried about me,

cause for the first time, you replied promptly! HAHA!

sorry to make you worried. i will be fine.

i feel so loved today :)

ps: hope i wont affect your flying later on. all the best to you, my dearest.

2008-07-30T11:18:00.004+08:00

hello loves.

I've been feeling rather temperamental lately.

and today, i know the justification of it.

baby probably suffered under my cruelty.

sorry love :)

caijun dear came work today

my once-a-week candy, i must say.

friendly bickering starts immediately she spot me.

my little lovely, she made my day :)

whilst, feeling all geared up for school

i went to check my time-table for the week ahead.

realised i had a newly-added POA lecture on sat.

what a 'splendid' beginning of a lovely weekend.

i hope i will be in time to meet my lovelies after lecture.

embracing the sun is what we gonna do.

i yearn to be a roasted pig at the end of the day.

an email from SIM Canoeing Club caught my attention.

they are having a kayaking course in august.

i'm feeling adrenalized!

contemplating whether to join.

but i doubt boyfriend is in favour.

afterall, he refused to let me join dragonboat.

so i guess the outcome will be the concordant.

*shrugs*

i'm dying to change my hair colour

my uncle calls me ang moh due to that. *LAUGHS*

i reckon it's time for a transformation!

*MORPHING TIME~~~~* -.-

i am gonna do something. i really am.

but i'm clueless about it.

baby says we're going to talk long long tonight.

i'm feeling exhilarated! woohoooooo

talking to him is my favourite activity at night.

i'm full of anticipation now. *smiles*

indulging in my lovey-dovey sweety yummy moments!

i love my boyfriend! (i know it's mushy. hahaa!)

till then..

2008-07-29T17:52:00.006+08:00

last night, i was telling bf about how sweet that guy was towards his gf.
expectedly, he went off saying "YOU MEAN I'M NOT SWEET TO YOU??"
i guess i know him quite well. dont you agree, baby?
and he mentioned sth about blogging how sweet he is to me.
TA-DA! that's what i am going to do.
so if it's get too mushy (i will try my best not to), HAHAHAHAHAHHAA!
you know what i mean. :x
okay love, let's begin.......................................................................
(it's gonna be a long entry)

during my A level period, he was always there to encourage me.
whenever i did badly for any paper, he will tell me it's okay, everything will be fine.
his encouragement always warms my heart.
on our first date, we went to night safari.
i know it's a weird place to go on a first date,
but it was a very special one for me.
that was where i know i was in love.
subsequent dates were movies and meals together.
nothing special but i enjoyed it.
he always get movie tickets ready whenever i meet him.

on the day we got together,
he left for tamworth for a month.
he calls me everyday and i got to know him better as a boyfriend.
when he came back, he bought me a rose and donuts.
all the way from australia. that was really nice of him.
most of the time, he will surprise me by appearing at my doorstep before we head out.
i remembered once i told him i wanted ya kun kaya toast for breakfast.
the next day, he bought it and came to my place. :)

valentine's day was on thursday so celebrations were postponed to saturday.
he had to stay in airforce school. i made arrangement to go out with my friends.
he told me not to go out and to stay at home. so i did.
i was really upset with him. i told my mum i was going to scold him when he calls.
he called me at 10pm and before i can say anything, my door bell rang.
there's was a surprise gift from him. all the anger was gone. *poof*
that was only the first gift. 2 more will be revealed on sat.
sat morning came, baby came to my place.
we were supposed to meet mark to get the car. a
nd he gave me my second present, chocolates.
the chocolates were nicely made and wrapped.
the third present was a bracelet. baby, i'm still wearing it :)
dinner was at labrador park. nice ambience.
and we ended the day at mount faber.

i always have this liking for military stuff.
for those who know me, they should know. haha.
he bought the airshow tickets to satisfy my liking.
thank you love.

outings with him were really enjoyable.
though we quarrel alot during the weekdays,
weekends were quarrel-free :)
with him, i never queue up for movie tickets.
and he always the one buying food for me.
all i have to do was to sit there and wait. hahaha.
we enjoy going to pasir panjang for dinner.
where we will eat till our tummies are filled to the brim.
and he never fails to send me home at night.

i remembered those wednesdays when he come to my place to stay.
he will wait for me to end work at cityhall.
then, we will have dinner first before we go back to my place.
and the next day, he will have to wake up super early to rush back to airforce school which is at eunos.
but he never complains.
i remembered a few months ago, i wanted to go zoo and night safari.
but he dint want to go night safari.
i was really angry with him :S
in the end, he gave in.
he always let me have my way so that i will be happy.
and i really appreciate it alot.
i realised he is the only one that i whine alot to. not even my ex bf.
in front of him, i can just be a playful little girl,
i am just who i really am when i'm with him.
i like it the way it is :)
i am able to share with him everything. yes, everything.
He's someone whom i can trust completely,
who know the best and worst of me,
and who still loves me despite all my faults.
my true best friend, i must say.

we had our first holiday at genting before he depart for perth.
it was through this trip that i got to know him even more.
he was like my parents, a friend and a 'husband' to me.
he took care of everything. there was no need for me to do anything.
on the journey there, i just slept beside him. i felt so secured.
due to the winding roads, i felt nausea and wanted to puke.
he was there to take care of me.
when we reached, he did the check-in while i just sat there waiting.
everyday before we head out to play,
he will calculate and separates the money so we will have enough for the entire trip.
when i am hungry, he will buy food for me.
when we were at the themepark, we were like 2 little kids.
laughing at each other when the other party is scared.
because of him, i no longer fear of corkscrew. :)
mummy wasn't worried. i dont know why. haha.
time spent with him always passed fast.
i remembered crying when i was on the way back to spore.
i dint want to go back.
because i will be hit by reality.
the reality which is he'll be leaving in a wk's time.
thinking of that, tears just flow.

after we came back, 1 week just passed.
soon it was time for him to leave for his 10 mths stint in pearce.
the night before he left was a very very terrible night for me.
i talked to him till 2 plus before we went to bed.
i couldn't sleep. i toss and turned and cry like mad.
finally i fell asleep. but i woke up shortly after.
and that night, i just sat at the sofa alone, crying.
it was time to get change and to leave for the airport.
by that time, my eyes were pretty swollen. puffy and red.
i was tired of crying. however, on the journey there, i cried again.
finally, i arrived at the airport and i met him.
my tears stopped flowing because i promised i wont cry.
we even made a bet. if i never cry, he is suppose to give me a dollar.
baby, i am still keeping the dollar you gave me.
at the departure gate, i hugged him.
and he went in hurriedly.
and that was where, i broke down.
because, baby's going away. for real.
and to my surprise, my brother cried too.
reason why? because he felt that i was very poor thing.
hahaahaha. so cute la. :)
when i wanted to leave, i called baby because i cant see him inside.
that's when i realised he was hiding and crying.
after awhile, i left. i left with mummy, daddy, bro and claire.
i am glad i had them to support me.
but in my heart, i was going crazy.

well, he still calls me everyday. up till now.
his calls has become my needs everyday.
others will never be able to understand unless they are miles apart.
i pray hard that march 2009 will arrive soon.
i guess i am feeling better now.
though many times i cry myself to sleep.
i realised i am good at hiding my feelings.
i always tell myself that 10 months will be over soon.
and yes, it will.
though, there will be many more to come?

my dear,
as i wrote this entry,
the memories that we shared makes me smile.
there's too many to pen down.
but it's engraved in my heart.
take care of yourself there.
i look forward to your return.
and i can see you in your uniform. YAY :)
thank you for everything you have done.
love you always.

ps: i should write an entry about how nice i am to you too? HAHAHAHAHAHA! :)

[add]
i am so proud of you today.
your flying has improved.
even your instructors praised you :)
WELL DONE, baby!
so happy for you.
you will do better day by day.
*thumbs up*
call me early ya?
sorry that i came home late last night.
i'm sorry

2008-07-28T17:48:00.003+08:00

weekends were filled with parties :)
sat was ah boy's 21st birthday.
and sun was irna's 21st birthday.
lots of smiles and happiness.
just enjoy being happy.

i went out with dearie on sat.
it was an enjoyable time spent with her.
just the two of us. i like it. i really do.
i am glad we're still BFF, even though we move on in our lives.
had an argument with dear. and i cried though i tried my best to control my tears.
somehow, i was really heartbroken. i dont know why.
thinking back, i guess i was silly to wake up at 7am to wait for his call.
though i know it will never happen. but i wish it did.
anyway, i went to sleep at 3 and had a bad dream.

i'm sorry to make you wait for me last night.
sorry for not giving you the attention that you want.
really sorry.

this morning, i woke up in tears. i dreamt of you.
it caused me to feel really depressed.
i miss you and i yearn to see you badly.
do you miss me too? do you?

i recalled dearie telling me about the pilot trainee who died in brunei's gf's blog on sat.
managed to find her blog over the net.
i spend my time reading her blog instead of doing my work. ha.
as i read, i cried.
there was an unexplainable pain in my heart.
i was deeply touched by all her entries, all the memories she had with him.
she loves him so deeply. just like how i feel towards him.
i cant help but to imagine if i am her, what will happen, what will i do.
but i know for sure, i will cry till my eyeballs drop out.

"He was my everything,
my soul mate,
my best friend,
my lover,
and almost husband. ( quoted from her blog) this is so true :)
his messages to her are really really sweet.
erm, mr cheong, i am not saying that your messages aren't sweet alright.

through her, i have learnt alot.
i have so much to share with you tonight.
dear, call me early :)

2008-07-24T09:57:00.004+08:00

last night, a decision was made. i'm not going perth in september. after much discussion with him, we decided to postpone the trip to december. it's pretty expensive to spend $833 on a two and a half day trip. honestly, this trip has increased my burden but it has also taught me how to save money. :) though i feel sad about it but it's okay. i will start saving money for my december trip to GOLD COAST!

i have a new goal to achieve - to travel at least once a year. :) so far.... i have only been to genting. and it's twice. the third one will be at the end of the year. -.- lucky i apply to be genting member. LOL!

today there's meeting at cityhall office. i came to work as usual but i am still feeling terrible. thinking of seeing the doc later on. oh well, i will see how it goes.

mummy has been really mischievous lately. all her schemeing plans to make me do things for her. if i dont succumb to her, she will 'torture' me. HAHAHAHA! that's my mum, adorable at times.

2008-07-23T10:06:00.005+08:00

i am sick again. oh yes, again and it's not only me. guess i can only cast all my accusations on the food we ate in office. being sick makes me feel tired and moody. hence, venting my anger on others that comes in my way.

i'm sorry. :)

Glad that what i said helped you. hahaha! all the best to you!

meeting airen tomorrow.

i'm filled with anticipation.

it's been long.

2008-07-22T16:42:00.006+08:00

last night, some counselling was done over the phone.

i hope you understand what i am trying to say.

i am trying whatever i can to encourage you :)

hope at the end of the day, my effort is not gone to waste :)

time passes freakling slowly when i'm at work. 0.0

I WANNA GO HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

life hasn't been easy.

ytd, i learnt a horrifying truth.

something that i cannot and do not want to share.

i am utterly disappointed in YOU.

chances were given but you never seem to cherish.

neither to change.

i dont see any effort from you.

many times i wanted to hate you, but i cant.

many times i wanted you completely out of my life, but i cant.

why are you always doing such things?

why are you always inflicting pain to others?

i do not know what to do or what to say.

all i know is..........

i'm very very very disappointed in you.

2008-07-21T16:44:00.010+08:00

i am feeling sleepy now. i fell asleep while doing my accounting work. :x

i wonder how you're doing now.

probably up in the sky, getting scoldings from your instructors?

for once, you msged me. i am happy. really happy.

i do not know how to help you.

i felt so useless and helpless.

i'm sorry.

i prayed for you.

i believe God will be with you :)

hmmm...

lately, i realised i havent seen someone in church.

i do not know where she has gone to.

i missed her funny actions, her company.

and, i missed talking to her.

airen, where are you?

where have you been to?

many times i want to msg her, i hesitated.

i do not know whether she will reply me.

ytd, i called her. but she dint pick up.

she has been my best pal and suddenly,

everything change...........

i remember telling her that we will grow old tgt.. :)

memories of her and me just made me teared.

we used to meet almost everyday.

just like real sisters, we shared everything.

there wasn't anything i can hide from her.

she's the one that constantly encourage me.

she's the one who always make me laugh.

she's the one that brings me lots of joy and peace.

my sister,

where are you??

please come back........

i'm waiting :)

2008-07-21T10:00:00.005+08:00

weekends was kind of relaxing for me. :)

let me begin from friday...

friday,

meeting in the secretariat was impromptu as the main agenda was to persuade teresa to stay. she had tendered her resignation on wed. oh man... now, i will begin to detest working. anyway, i guess she felt pressurized as all the EXCO members came down just to persuade her. 0.0 work ended on time as my boss went back early. *GRINS* teresa gave me a lift to mummy's workplace. i really dont like to wait for mummy! i waited from 7 to like 9pm and i was super super super hungry. i asked mummy to treat me dinner because i waited so long for her. HAHAHAHHAHA! after dinner, went home to talk to rq. we had a long conversation (finally!) and i cried. it's been a long time i cried over the phone. i missed him :'(

saturday,

i didnt attend GB. wasn't feeling well, having a terrible sore throat. woke up at 8am, my head seems to be so heavy that after replying minhui, i fell asleep on the sofa till 12. :x i didnt have anything to do, so i went tanning. and.... i continued my sleep. HAHAHAHA! glad that i got slightly darker :) after tanning, went home to watch tv. shortly after, mummy came home and we went out for dinner. just the 2 of us. oh well, it's indeed a boring saturday but it was a very relaxing one! oh ya! i had a video call with dear... havent see him for like a month? and after that he made me wait for a hr or so because he went to play computer games with his friends. -.- but anyway, glad he had a wonderful saturday.

sunday,

despite sleeping late, i woke up early for church. And for the first time, i felt really excited to go to church! it's been a long time since i went for youth service. usually, i will attend the adult service with mum. anyway, service was great! for my cell, we had picnic, so we proceeded to the park near my church. it's was a nice fellowship session. shall not elaborate more :) The GB girls were in church selling food to raise funds. afterwhich, i went to macdonalds with huishi, jiachyi, abigail and sheridin.

met up with ling and junhao. and the 6 of us went to have another session at mccafe. after the girls left, ling, junhao and me went to coffeebean. we shared about our love life. i realised that singapore is indeed a SMALL place. HAHAHAHA! it's was a nice sharing and that took about 3 hrs?? lol! we just enjoy talking, dont we? anyway, rq was upset with me. because i didnt message him today. :x i'm sorry. but sometimes, i really dont feel like messaging. it's always a one-way communication and i'm worried that i might disturb you. so ya lor................................. I'M SORRY :)

today, i'm experiencing MONDAY BLUES~ just dont feel like working. hope time will pass fast. i'm only left with 2 weeks before school reopen. i'm not prepared yet. mentally and physically. sigh. i am just so tired of everything. i need a break!

baby,

all the best to your flying today :)

dont be stressed alright?

just relax and try your best!

jiayou jiayou!

i was totally amazed when u said you used to fly solo during your youth flying club days.

AMAZING~

hmmm...do you actually read my blog?

or are u totally occupied by your games?

anyway, i miss you :)

8 more months to go..

66 days to seeing you! WEE~!

2008-07-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

today i am working in cityhall office. i dont really enjoy working here because....the journey back home is terrible. just like cans of sardines.

lately, conversations with him is good. no quarrels. no disagreements. :) which is good. i guess things are better like this. maybe absence makes the heart fonder. i dont know.

anyway, i am happy today because IT'S FRIDAY!!!!! WEE~~! i have no idea how am i going to spend my weekend but definitely a low-cost weekend. saving moolahs!!

2008-07-17T12:19:00.002+08:00

oh my oh my! 0.0 just went to check out the prices for flights to perth.

PRICES HAVE INCREASED!!! AHHHHH!!

SIA - $988

Qantas - $ 834

Tiger Airways - $780.98

initially tiger airways was $630 then $660 and now.... $780!!! yet, i cannot book the flights. if its gonna increase again, i am so gonna kill him! he kept asking me not to book first in case he fail. -.- and now....... look at the prices! i dont know what to do. should i go? haiz.. if i spend the money, i will have to save all over again for my bank loan.

LYNNEST, NO MORE SHOPPING! NO MORE OVERSPENDING ON PHONE BILLS! NO MORE IPOD (at the moment)! hee hee.. let's see how it goes...

i should just relax and take things as it goes. wonder what will mummy's reaction be if i tell her the prices. i think she will prolly ask me not to go. LOL! :x

2008-07-17T09:32:00.003+08:00

this morning, emotions went wild again. i cried till my eyes are swollen now. i dont know what happen but there was a gush of emotions that led me to tears. i really miss you badly. i really do. i've 8 more months to endure. thank you for replying promptly after i msged you. i needed that. i will take good care of myself :) no worries my dear. soon, i will be fine again. believe me, i will. :D

anyway, today i am back in my office all alone. my new colleague - seah li has been terminated so ytd was her last day. 0.0 feel kinda boring without someone laughing and talking to me.

ytd, i wasn't feeling well so i dint go to work. matter of fact, i am super tired and mummy was on leave. i intend to wake up late but then... i woke early. like 7.20 am?! i am dumb. really dumb. since i was awake, i watched the news and at the same time, writing a postcard to him. decided to get him the N82 screen protector. mummy went for her check up so i met her at jp for brunch. bro joined us shortly.

after our meal, i went shopping with mummy. she bought 2 tops to wear to church. :) i dint intend to spend money. really. but i did. 0.0 oops! hahaaa.. i bought a psp cover (the old one was bulky), a top and a black berms. the clothes cost me $80 even though there's a 20% discount! HA! i better STOP shopping. gotta save money for my airtickets to perth. :)

i am thinking of getting an ipod but i dont know which one. my current mp3 has gone abit screwed up. lol! initially i thought of buying the 160gb ipod classic. but it's expensive ($548). so i thought of getting the 80gb which is $388 and slightly slimmer. but then, dear was saying that the ipod nano (red) is nice and small. indeed the ipod nano is slim and handy. but it costs $318 for a 8gb. whereas, ipod classic 80gb cost $388. $70 more. though ipod classic is bigger and bulky. but then it has a bigger screen. i want to get the bigger memory is because rq likes to watch movies, mtvs so, he can share it with me :) i dont know which one to get. hmmmm.. any idea?

oh well, putting that aside. is there any other airlines that i can get tickets from? need to compare prices. :x tiger airways is offering the tickets at $660 + (2 way). i heard tiger airways isnt comfortable. hmmm.. jetstar doesnt fly to perth. i hope september will be here soon. very soon, i will be able to see you again! :) YAY! that will be like 71 days later? hahahaha.... i'll be waiting.................................. hopefully time will pass faster in august. :)

alright.. gotta get back to work! :S

i miss you.

hope to see you really soon.

cant wait anymore :)

take care.

2008-07-15T09:45:00.002+08:00

i am feeling lethargic this morning or rather lately. even my colleagues are commenting that i look pale and sickly. that sound's bad. real bad. :S but i slept at 1 and woke up at 8. 7 hrs of sleep! isn't that like the basic requirement? whereas, when i am on leave, i am awake like a dragon. hahaha.. i guess this happens to everyone. :x

well, yesterday i was asking rq what will he do if i go overseas to study. (sometimes i ask questions that will evolve into an argument. dont ask me why. i dont know.) anyway, i cant really remember his answer but something i remember clearly - a break up, but not that soon but prolly later. 0.0 well well well, so i prolly said something like then i should break up with you because you're in perth now. and then, i knew he is going to say "you're the one who asked me to go!" AND HE REALLY DID! :) hahaha.. my dear, i believe everybody will ask u to go. it's a good career though u always rebuked me. giving it up would be insane. really. it's such a rare opportunity and you're just so near to become one. jiayou jiayou jiayou! at least i know i will wait for you unlike you...... LALALALALALALA~

this morning when i woke up, i felt so lonely, felt so lost, felt so confused. these emotions always strike me in the morning. whenever i am alone, emotions just go wild and i start to feel really emo. :S really wonder what is wrong with me. maybe its due to the transition period that i am going through? maybe i am thinking too much? or maybe ...? i dont know.

there are many things i feel like doing now or maybe from the start of the year. but i guess it will never come true. maybe it will all remain as a dream, as a hope, as a wish. while others will fulfill them or some even is doing it now. the desires for them just came in at the wrong time. i dont know how to put all my yearning, dreams and really concentrate on my studies. (i am starting to do weird things) it always a secret prayer that i always say to God. i wonder why do i have to go through so many wrong turns in my life. and it's always things i dont want at all, but it just happens. oh well.. i am getting confused now. oh wadeva~

feel emo isn't good at all. it makes me feel moody and frustrated.

as i look at the calendar, i realised junkai has about 2 weeks of leave before he depart for perth. i think he was on leave last week too. how nice! why rq's flight isnt postponed?!! LOL! oh ya, ytd dear reminded me that school is starting in another 2 -3 wks time. i dint even realised that! rq is away for about 2 months. 8 more months to go :)

my lil one,

how are you feeling today?

are u still having fever?

drink more water and get more rest k. :)

today u're flying right?

all the best to you! JIAYOU!

we'll have lots of FUN when i see u in sept!

till then, take care of yourself.

BYE BYE!

2008-07-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

awww..thank you dear for leaving me a msg. :)

anyway, i chanced upon my friend's blog. she is studying in melbourne now. as i was reading her blog, i cant help but feeling envy. sometimes i really wished that i was born in a filthy rich family and i dont have to worry much about school fees, etc. wonder how is it like to study overseas. unlike now, i have to study and work at the same time. all because of the freaking education loan that i have to shoulder. 0.0 it's really sad that to work like a cow and yet have to pay like a lump sum of money for the loan, unwillingly. sigh.. all for the sake of education! guess i can only blame it on myself for not doing it well during my A lvl exams. :S i really hope this wont happen in uni or i should just bang the wall and die! i guess rq will be my greatest motivation while studying. he is really so hardworking. even like now when he is having fever, he is still studying. if it's me, HA! i probably be on my bed sleeping. oh well, just a random thought. :)

i kinda dread going to work. i often question myself, what's the purpose of me working so hard. it's not like it's going to be my career after i graduate or i enjoy working. guess it all boils down to the pay cheque at the end of the month. the colleagues are terrific but sometimes work can be stressful and tedious. for instance, teresa was really thoughtful and sweet. she saw seah li and me missed the bus as its super full, she drove a big round to the bus stop to give us a lift to jp. :) btw, teresa is my 'bossy', the term my boss label her. hahahaa... i am refraining myself from taking leaves and MCs eventhough sometimes i feel like doing it. saving money for raining days and my perth trip. airticket prices are soaring due to the increase of fuel prices. when will they stop increasing the price?!!!! maybe one day, people will just invent teleport. no more transportation needed. i hope that day will arrive. hahahaha..

today, i had a nice chat with josel. really thank God for this wonderful sister, friend and cousin. she is always so fun to play with, talk with. we talk about everything. simply everything! like now.. we are discussing about twins, children. hmmm... maternal instincts is kicking in her. LOL

LYNNEST; says:
i want to have lots of children
LYNNEST; says:
:x
i haven't had enough. says:
hahahaha
i haven't had enough. says:
u piggy ah
i haven't had enough. says:
i said identical UNTWINS ma
i haven't had enough. says:
:P
i haven't had enough. says:
u want so many for wat
LYNNEST; says:
ooohh
LYNNEST; says:
sorry
LYNNEST; says:
nv read properly ma
LYNNEST; says:
paiseh
LYNNEST; says:
the more the merrier lo
LYNNEST; says:
hahahaa
i haven't had enough. says:
hahahaha
i haven't had enough. says:
the more the merrier
i haven't had enough. says:
i think v noisy
i haven't had enough. says:
hahahaha
i haven't had enough. says:
and expensiveeeeeee
i haven't had enough. says:
and i quite enjoy er ren shi jie
i haven't had enough. says:
:P
LYNNEST; says:
eeeee!
LYNNEST; says:
hahaa.. i want to bring my kids for soccer
LYNNEST; says:
so need a lot of children
LYNNEST; says:
HAHAHAHAHAA
i haven't had enough. says:
hahahahaha
i haven't had enough. says:
a lot a lot
i haven't had enough. says:
i think 2 is enough
i haven't had enough. says:
i like them to cling onto me like koalas
i haven't had enough. says:
hehe

oh well.. that's my funny cousin.

recently, i hate staying at home whenever my mum is around. her mouth is like a broken radio that never stop talking. oh no. is nagging. -.- she can nag and nag and nag non-stop. worst of all, it's the same topic. somebody save me!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!

i really ultra pissed off. SUPER PISSED OFF! and rq has picked the right time to quarrel with me. HOW NICE! -.-

2008-07-14T16:11:00.009+08:00

hmmm.. my blogskin suddenly became FINE!

thank you minhui for offering to help me.

it's no longer empty.. i can post up my previous entries.

recap....

went to bugis with dearie and baz

the main agenda was to celebrate dearie's belated birthday.

i dint know what to buy for her so i decided to buy her something while we shop. :)

it was indeed a nice shopping trip.

i bought a tee for baby, fake eyelashes + glue for dearie n myself, stockings for mama n me, and a pair of flats for dearie and myself.

hmmm..there's this saying that friends cannot give footwears as gift as it will cause the friendship to be broken.

but if the other party were to give a small token, everything will be okay. hmmm..

well, dearie likes 2 pairs of flats but she can only buy one.

so i decided to buy the other pair for her but i kept quiet. hee hee :x

i dont know whether she wants it anot. after seeing her facial expression, i decided to buy for her. :)

dearie, i am glad you like the gifts :) i believe our friendship will last.

love you...

dinner was on grace, we had indian-muslim food.

it's pretty nice :)

after dinner, we rushed to watch hellboy 2

movie was on baz

the show's kinda nice though the characters looks digusting :S

i enjoyed myself today,

feel so blessed to have this 2 great pals by my side.

dearie, i will send u the pics once i upload them :D

and meet up soon pls!

sunday, church as usual

daddy went to church with us! :)

hope God will speak to him, well, i am glad he came

lunch was great with the nice fellowship

it's been a long while...

after lunch was salsa lesson.

debra is really awesome! the way she dance is totally WOW!

hang out in church while daddy and mummy went for dialect service

we (ben,alexis,steph,josel,charis n me) decided to go to holland village, the coffee club

i guess we were the noisiest group :x

we waited for chih chiang and jonathan before we head to botanic garden for musical performance.

we had a fun time laughing when nyjc performed.

the performance ended at 7pm and it's dinner time

we walked to adam rd for prawn mee, it's delicious!

after dinner, we went to island creamery.

the entire day is filled with laughter and laughter and still laughter. :)

sometimes, its really nice to just relax and laugh the day off with a couple of friends.

ling was sweet to acc me all the way to jp. thanks sis!

today i overslept. :x

too tired from all the fun i had during weekends.

while blogging, baby msged me.

he just reported sick and he is having fever now. :S

really wonder how he is now.

he seems to come and then vanish -.-

claire and bro are back together -.-

HAHAHAHAHAHA..

whatever~ tata~

please take care of yourself.

dont make me worry k.

if there's anything, pls msg me!

sigh...

baby, if i can go over to take care of you,

i will do it. but i cant.

i am sorry....

i really dont know how you are now.

msg you but no reply.

are you okay? is everything alright?

tian ahh!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-11T18:17:00.001+08:00

i actually found a blogskin that i like.

but after pasting the html,

everything seems to go wrong.

WEIRD!

nvm.. i shall leave it on it's own.

computers aint a friend of mine. :)

tmr will be celebrating grace dearie's 20th bdae!

i'm ending work soon.

TGIF! *GRINS*

2008-07-10T23:15:00.001+08:00

today morning i was late for work. :x

but teresa was nice, she dint reprimand me

PHEW~!

around 7 plus,

i received a sms from rq.

he received my parcel! YAY! :)

the msges sent to me was really sweet and heart-warming.

*shy*

i guess the msges were sent after watching the video i made.

teresa gave me a lift home and so i reached home early.

when i was putting my bag on the chair,

i noticed a silver envelope with an airmail sticker.

AND IT'S MINE!! :)

i quickly tore the envelope (very gently though)

and there's a nice card and an elmo iron-on badge

as i read the letter, i cried :'(

emotions went loose. totally.

couldn't fake it anymore.

emotions that i have been hiding and suppressing.

i let it all flow out tonight.

baby, it's indeed a sweet surprise from you. :)

thank you so much

i really miss you badly!

everyday i just thinking of you.

everytime i see a couple, i will think of you. hahaahaa

i hope you like what i made for you

you've to jiayou k!

i know life in perth is tough and tedious.

do not give up! :)

i will support you all the way.

lastly, i love you.

alright. gonna wait to talk to you :)

once again.... thank you darling!

2008-07-09T17:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, DEARIE!

hope you have a great bday celebration with baz!

sat will be my turn! :)

love you!

back to work

2008-07-08T22:22:00.005+08:00

sigh.. today i am back to work 0.0

work seems okay.

as usual. the boring routine job.

monday,

intend to sing k

but due to youth day and its overwhelming crowd,

there wasn't any room left.

so we went to have brunch at kobayashi.

immediately i thought of jiayu, the days where we have our lunch there after school

i saw esther! well, i dint notice her looking at me :x

sonia and hongwei went for their movie

whereas, david, ben and me went for swimming.

and my embarrassing moment arrived..

when i was about to change, i realised i forgot to bring my bikini top but the bottom! HAHAHAHAHA!

so ben and david went swimming while i waited for them

it was movie after swimming.

we dint really have any movie in mind.

so we bought shaolin girl based on the timing of the movies.

the show is really really boring.

i nearly fell asleep while watching it

total waste of money.

mummy told me that claire and bro broke up AGAIN.

sometimes i really wonder is relationship really so vulnerable?

i always thought that to fall in love with someone takes time and effort.

all the more both parties should treasure it.

but yet again, giving in more always results to greater pain.

i really dont understand. i really dont.

2008-07-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

HEY!

i'm back from genting :)

it's really a fun and relaxing trip with you all!

i had lots of fun

hope u all have lots of fun too!

i will upload the pics once i get them...

tmr gonna meet for k-lunch and swimming.

tues will be back to work -.- sigh~

bb,

i am back!

i know you miss me! HAHAHAHA!

how's your weekends without me?

bet it isnt good at all. :X

i miss you alot when i was there.

memories of you and me is everywhere.

can't help smiling whenever i think of you :)

genting!

2008-07-04T17:30:00.002+08:00

wanted to go tanning today but apparently the sun isnt hot.

leaving for genting tonight

time for a relaxing and fun weekend :)

rest assured that i will be safe

i hope i will be able to talk to you before i go

please take care of yourself

sorry that i cant acc you over the weekend.

love you :)

new blog :)

2008-07-03T15:03:00.001+08:00

oh well.. since i am on leave, i decided to create a new blog

alright, ling and minhui, TA-DA! HAHAHHAAHA!

i decided to create a new blog instead of using the old blog.

old blog contains too much of the past. :S

past that i want to keep it to myself

anyway, this blogskin is the standard template.

I DONT LIKE IT!

i am still searching for a nice blogskin but couldn't find any. GRRR~

i am having my leave and rotting like never before.

time passes fast when u have nothing to do

whereas, time passes so slow when i'm working.

hmmm.. what a ironic thing!

there's nth much to do at hm though.

have been keeping myself entertain with windows movie maker. :)

josel introduce it to me! (i dint even know it exist in my com HA!)

making a little surprise for rq. hee hee hee heeeeeeeee

i am full of anticipation for my upcoming genting trip.

HOHOHOHOHO!!

excited~ excited~ excited~

somehow, it brought back memories of rq and me :)

well, will blog soon..

gonna watch tv and be full-time couch potato!